It's one of those heavy ugly days when everything seems to be wrong and you wish it could just end ASAP but it lingers !
Besides my wedding preparations' stress and mess, I had to give up one of my little cats. It was as if I left my own child at an orphans' shelter eventhough I gave it to someone who promised to take good care of him! Still, it tore up my heart!
Trying to cheer me up, my sisters took me to a nice restaurant to eat something (since I was almost fasting the whole day). We were chatting over dessert when someone stopped by our table and called us by our names in such a friendly way, shook our hands so warmly and then smiled and said " it's ok, it's hard to recognize me, gals".
We were surprised and really unable to identify the guy despite his sort of familiarity. I focused on his eyes and I screamed: "R....?!". And it was him ! God! our childhood neighboor and friend, my classmate for years, the first guy I ever slapped in my life for being mean with me ( we were 6 years old), the kid who always dishes on me to dad and mom and get me grounded ! This same guy who joined me years later at college...
Well, this same guy, my childhood buddy, my sibling, was standing in front of me in that restaurant but with a disfigured tired face. He lost his long black hair, his eyebrows and even his eyelashes ! He was so fade...so sick ! We were shocked and unable to say a word!
It was so embarrassing, we felt so guilty and so sorry for him. He smiled again and kept chatting, to break the heavy silence; he gave us an update on his life , his family's, asked about our parents and then left to his table to join his friends.
I felt like a lump in my throat and couldn't fight tears and sorrow while looking at the walking fainting zombie who turned to be a former part of our childhood, our life.
He is just my age, just 29 years old, and he is... dying ! How can't my heart be so broken, God what a damn day !

Besides my wedding preparations' stress and mess, I had to give up one of my little cats. It was as if I left my own child at an orphans' shelter eventhough I gave it to someone who promised to take good care of him! Still, it tore up my heart!
Trying to cheer me up, my sisters took me to a nice restaurant to eat something (since I was almost fasting the whole day). We were chatting over dessert when someone stopped by our table and called us by our names in such a friendly way, shook our hands so warmly and then smiled and said " it's ok, it's hard to recognize me, gals".
We were surprised and really unable to identify the guy despite his sort of familiarity. I focused on his eyes and I screamed: "R....?!". And it was him ! God! our childhood neighboor and friend, my classmate for years, the first guy I ever slapped in my life for being mean with me ( we were 6 years old), the kid who always dishes on me to dad and mom and get me grounded ! This same guy who joined me years later at college...
Well, this same guy, my childhood buddy, my sibling, was standing in front of me in that restaurant but with a disfigured tired face. He lost his long black hair, his eyebrows and even his eyelashes ! He was so fade...so sick ! We were shocked and unable to say a word!
It was so embarrassing, we felt so guilty and so sorry for him. He smiled again and kept chatting, to break the heavy silence; he gave us an update on his life , his family's, asked about our parents and then left to his table to join his friends.
I felt like a lump in my throat and couldn't fight tears and sorrow while looking at the walking fainting zombie who turned to be a former part of our childhood, our life.
He is just my age, just 29 years old, and he is... dying ! How can't my heart be so broken, God what a damn day !





